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Question mark.

'Cause tonight, we can be as one, tonight... Today, as I was driving back into town, almost all the songs I have come to associate with Derek played. Really, radio, really. However, I was not emo about it like I would ha…
Tonight

Like sugar and cyanide, you've got me feeling sublime/ I wanna shout it from the rooftops down/ Til it's over, and we're older Tonight I am spending some quality time with @ifoundyarnia. We are drinking, and I am eating…
Around the town I use a rattlesnake whip, take it easy baby don't you give me no lip

Who do you love? I was driving westward into the mountains under the moon, classic rock playing on the radio. It was amazing. Quickly, because I don't have much time: Sobre the kid: He grew a backbone! I was quite sur…
I'm thinking glitter is going to be involved.

Picture this, you're the queen of everything, as far as the eye can see, under your command. I miss him. I'll think of things he's said, references he brought up again, or faces he's made in the last couple of weeks, I'l…
That was not very Raven.

I spent my day playing video games. Pretty much all day. No regrets, though. I played Civilization and Skyrim and my friend's copy of Rocksmith, and I played (and lost) a game of Monopoly with my brother and cousins. (B…
Sometimes the weak become the strong

Friday, Paige and Derek and I went to a party. But before we went, Derek and I were cuddled in what has become the standard cuddled-uncuddled-insert-space-between-then-cuddle-again pattern on the couch watching Friends.…
/failspy

Kate is out safely, thank heavens. Thank heavens, too, that Beth came down for her. It makes me feel terrible that I could not when Beth could and did. We'll let that stew. Lord knows it's stewing in the back of my mind.…
Sometimes you tell the day by the bottle that you drink

Sometimes when you're alone, all you do is think. Eff. So you guys remember Fred? Maybe not, it's been a while. Fred-my-stalker-from-Blacksburg-Fred, the-one-who-transferred-to-be-in-classes-with-me-Fred, get-out-of-my-h…
@ifoundyarnia

Talk to me. Pretty please. Because I love you. And you are amazing. And I thank God every morning when I wake up that I'm lucky enough to have a great friend like you. I wasn't kidding when I said we were soulmates. We a…
Nightmares are weirder these days.

Doesn't it suck when a nightmare wakes you so as to be perfectly awake, where you might as well get up because you're awake now anyway? I had a nightmare that some college friends of mine kept losing their child, and the…
Moldy wine party of DOOOM

...Nah, nothing so melodramatic. Every year at my house, the weekend before Christmas, we host what my dad calls our "moldy wine" party. It's a party where we make this big ass crock pot full of mulled wine and lots of f…
So make a move/ Cause I ain't got all night

You know what, my friends, it could be just that all this time around him is placating me, but I'll tell you what's going through my head. I spent most of today with Derek and Paige. I made fudge with them and we ate tog…
Better than expected.

Once again. I was expecting the worst. Momo is the one dude in my life right now who gives me all the attention I want and who I know cares, so it was a rough decision to make sure he knew beyond a doubt that we were not…
Derek

One word: Gothika. Three words: bad, good, and aggravating. I guess the best way to do this is to relay facts first, and speculate later. First off, the bad. Because that's where it starts. I've been up more than forty h…
Christina the lizard-faced.

You guys remember the Hierarchy of Needs? I've been thinking about it a lot lately. These crazy thoughts come to me seemingly only when I'm half-lizardlike, with the chapped lips and the red splotches on my face from sh…
Smiley face.

So. So hey guys. So hey guys, maybe, just maybe, I was completely wrong earlier. Off my rocker, as it were. Never been happier to say that. I was texting Paige about it today, and she said, "you know what we need? Jack…
why

What is WRONG with me? Seriously, I want to know. Why is it that I STILL THINK he cares when he obviously doesn't? Here's how yesterday went down: Paige set up this thing where we were going to dinner at this place, righ…
You do not see this post.

No one does. This post is like Fight Club. You do not talk about this post. This post never existed. You aren't reading it. It's only effing here for my best girlfriends to read. Remember, first rule: you do not talk abo…
If my heart could beat, it would break my chest

How am I being this way right now it is ridiculous. I have even less time than I thought I had. There is too much to do. And entirely too much to be felt. I'm not ready for this.
I ain't gonna beg for you to love me, because I know you will

I just know it. This fucking song, you guys. Listen to it. It's one of my all-time favorites, ever. I feel like...like this little dude right here: I don't belong where I am, but maybe, if I just keep flapping... Oh ho…
I really do not care.

I am being lazy. I do not care.
Come tomorrow, tomorrow I'll be gone

I want you to notice/What you've been missing/I want you to feel that/Feel that deep inside of you. ...and those lyrics...they sound so wrong out of context. Fuck boys, man, fuck them. One of them is a jerk who used to l…
Gag myself with a fucking spoon.

I saw the kid again tonight, as his mom's about to leave for across the country, and I wanted to help. He's seriously so adorable it fucking hurts. We were in the truck driving and looking at Christmas lights and he said…