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Putting this in the win column.

Today, I was back in my hometown for Halloween. At the forefront of my mind, of course, was this thing with M. And I am glad to report... So I walked to his house, because I can, from my old house, and when I got there,…
I could swear to God this is happening on purpose.

I was driving home just now, thinking about just how the hell I'm going to handle this thing with M, when Wish You Were Here played. I don't know what even to say anymore. The radio needs to get the hell out of my life,…
In which the emotions master me.

I am not master of my emotions right now. My head hurts and my heart aches tonight. There were a lot of great things about this weekend, so many that I didn't have time to do things like return phone calls, so @ifoundyar…
"The Mike Effect."

I think this weekend is so full of activity for me, I've got so much to blog about that I'm just going to end up blogging like three times a day. Make up for lost time and all that. Problems raised in the peanut gallery?…
Right?

Tonight, M and I went on a ghost ship tour. I really wanted to go, so I told him about it and he picked me up and drove us there. I still paid for myself so that it was not a "date." :P So he picked me up in his big red…
Reactive vs Proactive.

So, you know how I've been in training this week? Today, it was about being reactive versus being proactive. Reactive people, the training said, allow other people's opinions and actions dictate what they do.…
Pudding pops, sourdough, and fudging drama

I am le tired, but I have a few things to say tonight. I'm in training, and it made me think deeply about myself and where I'd be without some of the people that have been in my life, and it inevitably made me think abo…
A useless gif story.

I hate being on a diet. I come home from a weekend in Blacksburg where I disregard my diet and I'm like and then my diet is like whoa and I'm like I spent my evening on Tumblr and watching Arsenic and Old Lace and Cary…
There are moments when I am overcome

'Cause it breaks my heart/ that we live this way/ I know people need love/ 'Cause them people never play the game. My birthday weekend was fucking amazing for so many reasons that I'm too tired to list them all to do t…
Speak of the devil...

And he appears, of course. Today I got a message from Mike. Since "I just want to punch you in the fucking throat, you douchebag cuntface son of a whore" wasn't a polite response, I settled for, "Mhm" and "yeah" and "I'm…
I need some bitch beer all of a sudden.

Today after work while I was in Food Lion getting stuff to make my birthday cupcakes for tomorrow (I don't like them as much as I'd like to like them, but maybe that's good, since I'm on a diet) I suddenly smelled someon…
Why I suck at life (and other obvious things)

I need someone to tell me I'm a scumbag tonight. There are two camps when it comes to me and my boy drama: the camp that 1) it's better than emo-tastical Christina all day, erryday and 2) that all the boy-drama needs to…
Nothing, really.

Tomorrow, boozy cupcakes with Paige, parte dos! This time, with Blue Hawaiians! And M was going to come, but it seems that now he is not, because he is looking at trucks to buy. Right-o. Er, nothing exciting tonight. Per…
postscript

But, oh, my God, I never recognized how much I missed having arms around my waist until last night. It is the most wonderful feeling in the world- a man's bigger hands resting into the curves at your sides as he stands…
Bro status elevated to "tomato." (Or whatever else is orangey-red.)

I begin to think I'm bad at these so-called "social cue" thingies. I think maybe yes. Let me tell you about it. On Friday's episode, we saw Christina rejoicing at the end for her "new bro." She was ecstatic that there wa…
The gospel according to my new bro.

Amen, I say to you: tonight went... really well, actually. A lot better than I expected. You see, M and I hung out tonight, on my terms instead of his. So I invited him over to my parents' house, where we drank PBR and w…
An accidental creeper.

The sunset today was beautiful. I watched it from a random neighborhood around my elementary school. I heard "chances" by five for fighting on the way. That song gets me every time. The other one Pandora gave me was "sym…
My bff Jill.

Nothing much to say tonight. I got a mysterious phone call on skype last night that I haven't pinned down to anyone yet. But I have the feeling it was Kate. I keep getting hits from Virginia on my site. Hello, Virginia.…
Why can I not have a bro?!

This is why we can't have nice things. Seriously, sigh. I knew it was coming, but... My texting buddy just asked me on a date. Well, rather, he asked me if I wanted to "hang out," and I said sure. And then he suggested a…
A seriously random brain dump and also DOUCHEBAG.

I don't really want to re-hash it, but I figure because I'm still seeing red, I probably should just suck it up and get it all out here. So, you guys remember Mike? That douchebag? Let me tell you about that douchebag. T…
I'm so angry I don't know what to do with myself. I know it's bad when I'm not sure whether I'm going to punch someone, scream, cry, or throw up. It's not like the truth is anything I didn't expect, but... it just kill…
Rockbannnnnnnd.

I wish I were in Blacksburg. I could walk there all night and feel perfectly safe. In my old neighborhood, I feel just ever so slightly unsafe while I'm walking at night. Anyway. Now I'm stuck back inside, which doesn't…
A thought for today:

At least we don't still live in an age where it is en vogue to take pictures of dead people all dressed up and posed. Just sayin. RIP, Steve Jobs, you beautiful bastard. I may dislike everything you created for it's fa…
I am excited about how well my weigh-in today went. Hoooray losing weight! I'm on my way to goal weight. :) I don't feel like blogging tonight, so here is a funny picture instead:
On family and boozy cupcakes.

How do young people text nowadays? It seems I have a texting buddy from the camping trip. He's got a girlfriend but randomly texts me but then says nothing but "lol." I'm not used to trying to keep up non-conversation co…
Hurghblurghl.

I'm too tired (yes, at 2030) to do more than this: Given an hour, a brand new station, and the starting song "Nutshell" by Alice in Chains, Pandora gave me a live version of "Wish You Were Here." I was passing my old hi…